giaguara's Journal: Man woman

man woman.

No manual entry for woman.

geekzh. no manual for woman. :O

*rant*

and i don't understand them as well. i should? i am one. i don't understand the other women at all. how can they talk about the feelings, hairdos, mode, chitchat and other people's business for such long times? i don't understand them. only two of them... who both work in IT. so if i can make such long arguments and discussions only about _computers_ with people unregarded of their sex, how _weird_ *ironic* is it that all my friends are male then?

i didnt ask for this body or this sex. i feel like i'm in a prison, sometimes and often i forget it but sometimes like now i am too far conscious about it. i am female *thus* i cannot understand anything about computers. *thus* all because of being of the wrong sex, i can't find no good job here, and the highest level where i could end would be offfice decoration. of those 8 to 4 or 9 to 5 careers, sending all those *funny* .ppt-presentations of stupid jokes to my personal friend-spam-lists from office... and making those .ppts and .docs...
or as alternative, being semi-nude in teh tv selling everything from flattening pants to phone rechargers.
no thank you.

once again, i am thinking to leave this country. this country has no future. people aer old. bureaucracy kills everything.. i don't letterally exist anymore here. i want my life. i want to feel like i LIVE, not like i survive only. i want a job that enthusiasms me. where i can show what i can do, and where i deal more with computers (macs!!!) than with people. i have gone away several times before in the pst, but have come back so many times here. this time i feel this is not my place really. i want to go to US, at least i find more people who think like i do.

for outsiders, this is just tuscany, benetton, wine, luxury dinners out, sunglasses, sports cars and stylish people. for me this is a huge difference between wouth and north. where in south you have no money. and where in north you ae looked down because you are not from there=north. i feel like a jaguar in prison in the city. i just want to go away. i just want to get to US and to work for ANYTHING apple or apple related (or in Apple ANYWHERE on earth or outer space)

i don't know what is the first start. maybe 1 - 2 weeks in USA in a region i like, and trying to convince some employees to take me, then come back here to get my baggage and visas. i just know what i want and that i'm redy to do _nearly_ anything that allows me to do that. including MARRYING someone only to get to US. why not? "a mac geek girl wanting to emigrate to california will marry an OS X / *X geek with a US passport". why not? :-/

geezh. i will open the project "marry" or even marry online.. as most women in italy either get married because they need a partner and feeder to satisfy their reproductional instincts (that i lack completelly!) OR .. marry a football player because they want to become rich and famous and then divorce.. at least i have the clear purpose stated already in the beginning. the pass ;-)

why not...

[Kafka_Canada]

scam a student visa or something? or go somewhere nice in Europe? from what I hear, Italy is among the most traditionalist and patriarchal of European countries.

Anyway, best of luck, America's a nice place.

Re:south

[giaguara]

no, south is all the same. no jobs. and women can be max. office decoration.

i have lived as well otherwhere in europe = uk and finland. more chances to get work, yes, but the dark made me really depressed, and something in that climate made me always ill.

i can't now get a student visa cos i have already the degree. unless i try to get a second there ... but i need more a work and being able to live. :-/

Re:south

[Kafka_Canada]

I understand how it is.... things can be tough.

By the way, you got a couple of marriage proposals on the site in my sig. maybe you have some opportunities :)

Re:south

[giaguara]

heh, okay i go to have a look ;)

i was thinking to put an application online ... that they can compile with ANY otehr platfrom than windows (me racist? ;) ... "what platforms do u use?" "what do u do?" "What passport(s) do you have?" ... hey, looks like i'll have some fun on your page!! ;)

take care

Re:south

[Kafka_Canada]

hah, sounds pretty funny. if you'd like, send me an e-mail ([e-mail]) and i'll put up a little interactive application form. sounds like you're pretty geeky, so maybe you want to design it. otherwise i could have a go, it sounds like a worthwhile addition to the website ;)

cheers,

K

p.s. sorry about those links ;)

Re:south

[giaguara]

heh, yea. i was thinking to do a new formmail application form on the site (so i can hide my email addy)... so okkey i do that and send u the url!! i like ur hotmail addy, it's kewl :D
where did u get those .fi links btw??? :-0

Re:bell south, southern belle

[Kafka_Canada]

awesome, this should be a lotta fun. send me what you got, i'll also come up with a design (tomorrow-- i'm catching up on some sleep tonight). we should have a nice design for the app, and try to advertise a bunch -- after all, the more suitors the better :)

thanks re the e-mail address, i like it too.

i think there's only one .fi link, the C64 server. i just thought it'd be a funny addition to the matrix, i guess i was right ;)

are you in .fi by the way? your website's listed in .it -- silly europeans.

anyway, i'm looking forward to this, as i said it should be loads of fun. we can keep this little convo up here in the journal, but once you send me your first draft via e-mail we can carry on the REAL details in e-mail.

K

Re:bell south, southern belle

[giaguara]

nope? i thought the .fi link was just weird. actually too weird to even look in it!!

i made the first version of the online application:
http://digilander.libero.it/Mulattab ianca/link/mar ryme.html

i think that formmail thing has to be kept on the server it is order to make it work.. that looks now the _boring_ geek version.. heh. i didn't explain it all on the page; they have to know what they apply for. i tested it = the structure works ;D ... so that is now the beta version of it. = better develop the releae 1.0 then... :P

Re:bell south, southern belle

[Kafka_Canada]

It's a good start .... but needs some artistic and linguistic work ;)

i also have a few ideas for making it more, uh, horizontally integrated(!) with the webpage in general. i'm gonna catch some zzzz's now, but tomorrow i'll play around with it and show you the results. of course, if you have any further ideas, feel free to go from the alpha(it's not beta yet, geek!!) to the beta... we'll have rel 1.0-STABLE in a day or two :)

i'll talk to YOU tomorrow, have a good'un

cheerio

K

Re:alpha

[giaguara]

okkay... 'tis alfa. as far as i guess the structure with that formmail can't work outside digi.. well thinking about it tomorrow ;D
i guess i have to put down there "alpha release 0.01c, 9.12.2002 18.41 cupertino time" :-//