MindPrison's Journal: I don't want to work!

No, really - I do not want to work.

Basically everyone works, it is the way of our life - that is what our planet is based on and that's what most people aspire to do. I'm 40 years "young" now, I don't see me as old...I look pretty much the same as I've looked the last 20 years (at least I think so) ;) but that's besides the point I'm trying to make here. Heck...I really don't care if you get it or not, follow if you like.

I was sitting here in my home thinking over my life past the 20 years or so of work and unemployment in my life, not to mention the countless times I've googled about people and their job satisfaction or basically they overall satisfaction with life itself, I am really wasting my precious time on this planet. Sure - If everyone got the idea that they shouldn't work - this planet would probably come to an end pretty quickly, or would it? There will always be people like me - the odd ones out, so I think we're going to be fine.

When I go to work, I'm not happy, no no...I really like the line of work I'm in - but I end up disliking the people around me simply because they always seem to have some kind of hidden agenda, especially females, maybe it's just me who's getting old and "outdated" when it comes to the "in-crowd" or it's just bad luck - I really don't know (even though most people would look at this from their own point of view...don't think for a second I'm any different on that subject)...however - I really try to be - really!

The inevitable question on this would probably be something like: Why? I can't really answer that in one go, you'd have to live my life to answer that one, and even I have a hard time answering it. But you know what? I'm pretty tired of having a "hard-time". I want to have a good time....alas...a good life and I am tired of living by everyones "norms" on how-to-be..and how-to-behave. I'm not anarchistic, I prefer well educated company and also prefer people who are capable of thinking for themselves, I am also not shallow enough to only hang out with my peers - but will gladly hang out with societys dimmest of souls if they have a good heart, this however - doesn't always fall into fertile ground with the "ins".

All of this + my life experiences so far has led me to the conclusion that I really should not work. I don't want to become some
kind of loner sadly locked up by himself, barred behind some closed curtains in his technologically insane castle, I really DO want to meet people, feel the pulse as always, but I am sick and tired of being steered into whatever direction certain people feel like
they can do "with me" if allowed to do so by a certain work related situation - and this have happened repeatedly trough out my
life (and according to google & a gazillion work-rant sites) so there must be something wrong somewhere, we must be doing SOMETHING
wrong. Now...If you are thinking this trough - and these things never really hit you as it has hit me or other people then you may not be capable of judging the situation so please overlook it, you can't get it - really...you can't!

But I do realize that I must do something about my current situation, and I most certainly will - because I am really fed up
with people incompetence and "normalcy" to the brinck of madness, so instead of going there - I will "fight" towards enjoying life to its fullest and stop destroying myself on behalf of others.

That is all - move along now....