Peterus7's Journal: Oh well...

Today was a most boring day. Went to church, had discussion in the group. Meh, we lutherans are boring... Philosophical at best, sadly. I was bringing up actual deep psychological ideas about dietial vs. platonic love, and just throwing them around, and they were giving me BS in return. Nothing like philisophical debates with my buds... Hmm. I like hanging with nerdier types.

Anyhow, today was pretty boring, in contrast to yesterday, where I got up, expecting to go to seattle with the rest of the family. I decided to stay home, and just about as I was starting to feel really stupid for doing so, Lane calls up and asks me if I wanna go to see 2 towers with him. w00tage, eh? Well, we go, it rocked for the 3rd time, hehe, and then we go to wendy's and see steve. Good times, yah? Yep. Had nice chat with him, he's doing well. I hope he does well, he's a good guy.

Then I talk things over with Lane, and yeah... He's feeling better now, but he was... yeah. I think it was thursday night that he came over and we talked... he just let it all out. Hey, good for him, and I just listened. I've been his listener this whole time, listened to him while he's on his romantic high, and now I help him catch himself while he's on the down end. Poor guy.

Anyhow, after that we went to see Shakespear abridged, which was a lot of funnyness. Yeah. Lane kept on making vaguely bisexual remarks on me, trying to scare me. (I was just like ......*whimper horrifiedly*) What scares me even more is the ideas he wants to use with his next D&D campaign... Vile book of darkness and stuff. Suddenly all that Call of C'thulu doesn't seem so bad.. hehe. Also, he introduced me (sorta) to d20 modern, which looks pretty cool. I'm thinking of joining the W0tC forums, so yeah. w00tage.

Anyhow, today was boring. Went to church, wasted time online, a lot of time online. I need to watch it, or I'll start wasting away. Went on a walk, so yeah. Wanted to read something, bible, small gods, whatever, but I didn't. The internet is such a waste of time, but I'm kinda addicted. It's so much at my fingertips, like an entire world of socialness. It's a world. A entire fucking world, behind my monitor. And I can only watch and interact in very passive ways. The most I've ever done is screw with html on someone else's mb, and make a webpage. Big wow. I wish I could do more. But alas, I am simply a peasant. Maybe that's what all this stuff with trying to become a /. moderator is about. I want to be someone online. Not just a peasant, but a somebody. Hah.

What happened to being somebody in the real world? I guess that matters too, yeah, but it has warped to my addiction. I want to be a programmer now. Ha! I'm gonna end up like Lain's dad in Serial experiment Lain.. God... Great.

I'll have to shake this habit in college to study. But then again, that's what I said about high school...

Hey, at least I'm not watching tv, I'm talking.. and stealing mp3s, but that's aside the point...

Anyhow, back to today. Helped Jess play FFX, beat one of the hardest boss in the game really easily, and yeah. Went online. Went to grandparents house, did stuff. Boring as hell. Went online. Been there ever since.

Found lots of nice D&D stuff. I wonder about myself in the future. What will I be like? I have the will to succeed, in a sense. In my mind that means getting As and Bs in school, and getting a BS so I can be a programmer, maybe getting a certification just for the hell of it, and then getting a job, an apartment, a nice computer, and yeah. Just hope I don't get hooked on neverquit or other stuff like that. Oh yeah, get a g/f, hehe... God I'm boring... G/f... big issue. Lane is suffering. Colin is suffering. I lost my g/f about a bit less than a month ago. But I still miss part of her, her spunk, her confidence, her eyes, her lips, all of her. God she was the best.

Oh well, I guess there will be more. I am still kinda upset at Mattney for bringing up love right after my breakup, and trying to rub it in my face that their relationship is all that. Yeah, Courtney, after you just scare my g/f away with your nasty bitchy antics... Grr. And Matt too, he should've just not talked to her.

It was screwed up to begin with. Anyhow, next romantic relationship I get into, they aren't invited.

Well, tomorrow is a long day, I got calc homework, and then prolly another lecture in health, and then some bio stuff. Lab, or whatever... CRAP! I forgot to finish the lab. Oh well, I figure everybody else did. It's easy enough, just copy down all the stuff into the labbook. God, so tedious. Then I have English 103, which is... meh... I finished the journal and the reading, so I'm on top of it all, and then humanities 100 is a field trip, yay. Go field trips... And then tuesday is a day where I sit on my ass and eat cookies all day. w00tage. Wensday, thursday, and friday are all normal and stuff, and then saturday is volunteer day (get up superearly, grr...) and then sunday is the day where I WILL go to church, not just group, and yeah... And then monday is mlk day. FREEDAY! w00tage, eh? Well, I gtg. Bai.