longtailedhermit's Journal: lonely

my pain level is off the chart tonight. shooting nerve pain is difficult to bear. it's hard to concentrate on anything except finding a way to escape.

i wish i had a woman in my life right now. but it was a woman that made me seek refuge from emotional pain in the first place. i say "made me" which is denial. i just cope poorly. she didn't put the needle in my arm. only i am responsible for that.
the tag/date/accnt is from the doc.