Journal RM6f9's Journal: Been awhile (ramble warning) 4
Too many changes in too short a time can erode one's motivation: I recently had to have Gracie, the 84-lb tri-color ruff collie who shared my angel's last ten years, put to sleep (arthritis, constant pain, no more suffering) - Selling a majority of my stuff, most of which I knew were foolish purchases when I made them - rather like a temporary drug habit, I guess - preparatory to selling my house - debt-free will be a good thing when it happens, as the mortgage is the last debt.
The business I'm in: While I'm not enjoying the spectacular results some others are, it is rewarding enough to keep me going, both in terms of personal health and finances, so that's a positive...
It's odd, really - having one's future as an almost completely blank page, you'd think it'd be a sense of joy, of freedom - so why do I feel so scared?
Because it's the future (Score:1)
You know the routine, anticipation, and all that. The joy will come when it becomes the present..
Re: (Score:2)
Actually, I don't know the routine - I've always done the next thing either to escape the previous thing, or because somebody else expected it of me - now, I have a blank palette, a few things I want to do, but, within my own sense of what's moral and responsible, so many options it's scary. Thanks for the feedback!
Tabula Rasa (Score:2)
The good news is, you're a good guy. You're smart, compassionate, and a hard worker. I have a feeling you will do good, if not great things with your slate.
Change is often scary (Score:2)
The future is "the great unknown"; the people and things from our past are an anchor of reassurance and stability.
Having a plan, and seeing it progress, is great. It doesn't take away past hurts or the sense of loss, but it makes it a bit less unbearable, and gives hope for the future.