Journal DarkKnightRadick's Journal: Secret Relationships 6
Well, it was bound to happen. Jamie's parents now know about me.
Some of you might say, "But didn't they know about you from the start?" To this I can smack you with the +20 clue-by-four of understanding typed English.
Now the others might say "Why didn't they know about you from the start?" To this I can bestow upon you the mantel of knowledge.
They didn't know about me becase her parents have a thing about online romances. Because of one bad decision Jamie made in the past, she's fearful of present day consequences if she reveals that I am in fact not a CS major at her college (CSU). Those consequences being loss of phone and computer privledges even though she is 19. Also mail, if discovered, would be confiscated. So basically we would lose touch with each other. That is unacceptable to both of us, but the knowledge of the lie has my guts in knots. My parents know about Jamie. They know when she calls, they've answered the phone several times. They have no problem with the fact she lives in Colorado and that we spend hours on the phone. I'm more then sure they realize there is somehting more then friendship brewing between us and they are okay with that, despite I've made more then one bad decision in the past. I also understand that Jamie is her parents daughter and as such they'll protect her more, but at the same time, she's an adult.
I no longer know what to think. To say I was confused would be an understatement. Almost instantly I felt myself disconnect from all reality. Immediately I reexamined everything that has come to pass. I still care for her so deeply it hurts. But this whole situation, the lie. It has me on the verge of tears. If you can't understand why, I have a clue-by-four with your name on it. To be fair though I'll spell it out. I'm now in a position where if I ever speak to her parents (which I eventually want to do, I would love to meet her parents), I will have to keep up a lie about going to school in a place I know nothing about except what's on the web (which admittedly won't be much for a non-student). I could always turn the conversation to another subject, I'm rather good at that at times, but there are only so many times they'll allow themselves to be lead on to another subject. These aren't dumb people.
I don't know what to think right now, except that I need some time to think. Sometimes, I think I'm too rational. This new honest and open me is causing more unforeseen problems then before. Perhaps it's time to reload my thought matrix.
I most likely won't be online or at home this weekend. I might, or might not. I don't know yet.
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The only thing bad about my reaction is how self-centered it was. Insteading of seeing her reasons clearly, my reaction was clouded by my own ego about how I was viewed.