kesuki's Journal: should i become an at home author?

i haven't been as heavy a contributor here on slashdot since i started on facebook/g+. i have considered taking up writing as a hobby again as i now have the time to do so... i learned how to storyboard from movies and haven't taken up a project with a good storyboard yet(since i learned how). i just want to feel important and to do what i enjoy doing and if writing isn't all i thought it would be as a child, well i don't have any better plans for what to do.
it would seem that things are going to be okay for me for a while, i have no worries other than worrying that not progressing on writing fiction will drag me back into feeling worthless cause i could not write a single useful thing in that spare time.
what should i do. i can't game, as i made an iron clad no serious gaming for myself except on weekends rule as i can stay sane if i don't over stimulate my brain. i know how to write, i know what i like to read, i know a few insider secrets to writing the kinds of stories i like... but every time i try to draw myself into writing i just act like i don't want to write more. i don't want to be tldr, i don't want to scour old media hoping to glean some copyright infringement free ideas... basically i just don't know what to do as i want to be important, but i can't figure out what i should do to be important