Journal Jellybob's Journal: Bouncy, bouncy. 1
Mood swings are my current thing to piss me off. I'd really like to be able to stay in a happy mood, instead of defaulting back to depressed the moment the thing that was causing happy was happening.
This evening has been really bad for that - I've had a crappy day at work, trying to sort out kit for presentations at our funder's day tomorrow. We've only got one projector, because the other one was left out at the course we're running despite me asking them to bring it back with them tonight.
I got home, and rang around to find out who was driving it there (I don't have a car), since everyone was in a meeting this afternoon, to be greeted by answering machines all round, and then went to my cell group.
Which despite my misgivings about wanting to be there, was *really, really good*. People were really open for once, with everyone sharing something they wanted praying for, and then being prayed for (I know, it doesn't sound like progress, but my cell is made up of an age range between 15 and 20, with 3 people dealing with depression). We're also arranging to have a (possibly free) "team building" day to try and get some friendships developed... there are perks to having someone who works at an outdoor activity centre in your cell
It was also encouraging to see our resident not-yet-christian not only being willing to have people pray for her, but also praying for other people. If anyone wants to do some praying for a random teenager on the other side of the world, there's one here who could use some prayer.
After cell, I came home to... being depressed again. Just blank really, no feelings. I'd been feeling good, and in the time it took to get a lift up the road (about 5 minutes), I was back to my normal self... don't most people feel good for longer than that after a good time?
Then I spoke to one of the friends I havn't spoken to in ages on MSN for a while... she's one of my closest friends, who I can always talk to as myself, rather than the "happy me" most people get, and it was really good. Eventually we got round to discussing how we should set up a freak commune on a tropical islands, with sand castles, coconut trees, and... dinosaurs.
And then I finished talking to her, and went back to this state which I've been in for about an hour now.
Incidently, I sent a text message to the person organising the thing tomorrow, assuming he'd pick it up tomorrow morning, just checking what was happening. I got one back saying he'd gone into work and picked the stuff up this evening.
It's always good to be kept informed about things... if I hadn't checked tonight, I'd have ended up going into work (about 20 minutes out of the way to where I need to be tomorrow by bike), to find the stuff was already at the hotel we're doing the event in.
Sometimes I wonder why I bother putting any effort into this job.
Of course then I hear someone else got a job using skills they wouldn't have learnt if it wasn't for us, and I remember why.
Jon
OT (Score:1)
It is morning, and after reading this comment, the rest of may day can only be down hill.
Thanks JB, now I have nothing better to look forward to.