Journal bluefairee's Journal: the call 3
daev didn't change anything from what i did last night. i barely rmember doing it. i saw it and now i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY scared. i just called the hospital i was in before. my social worker is going to call me back. if i don't go back there then i guess i'm going into the hospital here.
i never even think about calling for help when things go bad. it honestly doesn't even enter my mind. i'm ususally so full of rage all i see is red. i need help and i hope to god someone can and will. for me to be scared is a really big deal since i've not feared anything since getting out of the hospital. if i don't post for a while, i'll ask dave to keep you posted. wish me luck...
very disturbed blue
Re: (Score:2)
Re:Glad you can see it. (Score:1)
there's good in you even you can't always see it.
i don't know if you read the things from your older journal entries, but some people wrote some good things there for you. if you get a chance look at them.
there are answers. you can find them.
good luck (Score:2)
Learn to ask for help.
What's in side, matching what's outside... was thinking about this, last night. You need to learn, which i also once needed to learn, that you have to make ONE more step- getting it OUT. And i don't mean as in hurting yourself to express it, i mean expressing it without the hurting yourself.
Painting, sculpting, writing, SOMEthing to express how you're feeling other than this.
It's a faculty that you need to cultivate.
And fast, from the looks of it. Expect it to inv